Sick of it....

well, i am kinda getting numb toward the empty promises

and kinda understand how's my parents' feelings

especially when i encounter almost the same situations

to be honest

i don't think i can't be serious during works, academics and games

i think i posted this before

but today's shift make me felt like i am post this again

perhaps there might be more of these kind of feelings in the future

but the main thing is, i am getting bored at works

it is not that i got bored from the responsibilities i hold during works

but it is the people there...

what do you felt, when you just want to confirm something

but get a cold-shoulder in return...

not a proper wording here

just that person's respond in annoyed manner

well, this is very frustrating situations

in restaurant, especially the one i am working in

once there is a mistake, there are at least 2 people will starting to shout at me

saying something like "WTF R U DOING?!"

"WHAT HAD YOU DONE?!"  etc

did you see the dilemma here?

a mistake get some scolding in return

a confirmation question earn a cold-shoulder response

what will you do?

seriously, i had a lighten mood to start working

then what i got is a blow to my mood

from the top of the cliff to the bottom of ravine

and this happened on the very first hour i am started working

this is point no. 1

Point no. 2

empty promises

due to the fact that i worked for such a long time in that place

i can be a full-fledged full-timer at anytime

but i patronizing my study first

so full timer on term date is out of story

but that's not the point

main thing is i need to complete many tasks when my shift is almost over

for instances, clean the coffee machine, counters, cutlery, plates and menu cards

there is a girl from Poland who hold the responsibilities of the cleaning the cutlery and plates

so, as long as she didn't absent or finish her shift early

my jobs are kinda easy

gonna side tracked

well, there is another full-timer

she "asked" me nicely to clean the counter and the coffee machine

in exchange of she helping me to serve the foods to the customers

which is my main jobs there

in the end, she is always nowhere to be seen when the bell rang

for the notification of the foods are ready of course

which mean that my cleaning jobs are always interrupted

which, really pissed my off

as i just realized that my style of working is keep the flows go on

which mean i am happier to complete the tasks without interruptions

well, that's point 2

point 3, i'll make it short

there is a new full-timer

and according from the info i heard

he is kinda "big", which mean he have some authorities

but he just take it way too easy

it is not that he is not helping

but he keep annoy me by keep saying

"why so serious"

which kept remind me of the Joker

gah, just annoyed

and frankly speaking

there is no one i can talk to

Parents? Out of questions, as they had their things to worry about

my best pal? Hardly to see him online

college gang? they had their FYP to worry about

housemate? well, there is nothing they can do, and i doubt they understand my feelings as they didn't went through as many hardship as i do

and i don't think i'll get any responses from FB as well

not even a like or comment.....

*sigh* <=== favorite word now

just use it and let the things be............