whole new level

well, things does happened
and to be honest
this passed week are damn crazy for me
i never expect my dissertation's proposal are going so well
and i go out with somebody i completely don't know for a movie
and i went for the counselling, spilled my hidden troubles to someone neutral for the 1st time as well

after these instances
i realized that typing out the troubles just helped a little
just a little, unless the post are made anonymously
but the thing is, this is hard to be achieved
talk to someone neutral, which mean he/she don't know the people involved in your problem
and the someone neutral must be have more life experiences than you
that way, he/she can understand your problems easily
anyway, she really helped me a lot
besides, she said that i looked like being in the most depressed state that she ever met

but, i did made a promise to myself
the promise of i will not drop a single tear anymore
not even 0.001ml
but, after that, something happened
and i not even want to tell what is it
until i think it is time for me to tell
so don't ever ask

and after "that" happened
people from work said that i looked very happy
very, very happy
well, that can't be help
since that suddenly i felt like i got more motivation to go on
compare to before of course

anyway, this 100th post make the change of my life!!!