No name Act 2

not getting any emo recently
but just got nothing to do
three weeks of Easter vacation had passed
i done nothing
set aside that earning some money and assignment
well, i just got one assignment to submit after the vacation
so i pretty let loose and have fun

what funs?
well
PSP, karaoke, drinking
that's all
dont want to waste any extra money
the target is close
next week, it's decided!!! (nonsense)

the "no name" thingy is just that there are things that i want to share
firstly
congrats to my friends that finished their interships!!!
secondly
congrats to Prince William and Kate!!!
well, the Royal Wedding of course!!!
but i didn't watch the live

so that's that
just want to wait till the downloads finish then went to do some groceries shopping...

No name Act 1

rather, I don't know what to put in the title
so this is the first post with the title "No Name"
could be have more, so i think this can be the act 1

enough for the title
there is something that i think it got some point
it's a note on FB
and it seems that i can't find the note or the link again
can't remember who shared it
it's about the differences between studying at any countries other than UK and in UK
if not mistaken, the title mentioned about 300 questions or something
and it do point out something that's unique here
but this is not what i looking for
there is one particular that about the friends

well, the question is
"will i gaining distances with my friends at my home country?"
and the answer is very interesting
"you'll not gain any distance with your friends, but your friends will."

thinking back
it seems this is quite the case
conversations ended abruptly
running out of topic during conversations
and so on...

well
i am not sure about is i who distanced myself
or the distances are gained from my friends
maybe they got things too worry about
so i am always tried to shove the weird thoughts away

and i even doubt that without FB, without this little blog, without MSN
i will be forgotten by my friends soon or later <---weird thoughts again
frankly, i envy the British
they say it out loud
do it out obvious
regardless the feeling or the possible future events that caused by current actions
i think i am over considerate and too sensitive <----again

in the end
the one who is really care for you
is your family
luckily the phone haven't died out...
...just yet
remember <----self memo
the family is really cared for you, don't mistreat them

this is it, i am getting a new laptop in this week!!!!

recovered

even since i started to worked on last sunday
i started to feel that something is not right
of course is my body
while that sunday is one of the busy day in the restaurant
when i taking a break and having the dinner
what i can tell is dizziness, and no appetite to eat
and almost at the end of the day
i feel like i can knocked out any time soon..

and as i predicted
the night wasn't a pleasant one
keep having nightmares
and unusually high body temperature
and in the monday morning
diarrhea, very watery diarrhea
and i think i break the records of going to the toilet in one day
and i didn't count the frequency
just knew like going in every 20 minutes

then a little bit abdominal pain, not very intense
then again, no appetite to eat anything
at night
i knew something is not right
and i was correct again
vomits
and the night wasn't a pleasant either
the night was unusually hot
i opened the window, with the blanket off
and i managed to sleep like that

and i felt much better on yesterday, tuesday
think that i got a light case of food poisoning
just can't remember what did i done wrongly on preparing my meals
probably is the fresh chicken that i brought on saturday
i try to cut the whole chicken into several parts for preparing the next few meals
maybe i didn't washed my hands properly
next time should buy some proper hand washing liquid or lotion or something

the more i think about it
the more reasonable it is
the matching incubation period
unknown type of causing bacteria
but the symptoms caused by the potential bacteria are correct
so i think is the campylobacter spp.

but...who cares
as long as i recovered.....lol

another thought that i had...

it's not that i like to complain
but sometimes
the ideas for the new posts force their way into my mind
while i am working
besides managing, arranging and carrying out the tasks
don't get the wrong idea
i am doing time managing, arranging the sequences of the tasks while i am working

to be honest
i am thinking about the other things while i walking
and i enjoying this kind of walking-while-thinking
but i prefer the term "meditation" and "fantasizing"
i like to meditate/fantasize while walking
even though it's just a 5 seconds walk
i just want to keep my brain active that's all

back to the topic
i have some thoughts
but i rather say that i am comparing my current situation with my parents
for example, what would my parents do when they encounter this situation
the things that they gone through
the experiences that they gained while developing the their career
and i think i can fully understand why they scolded me for things
especially the things that i think it's correct while they thought to be wrong
and of course, the money issues....

and now i am think of it
the money i earning now are produced with my blood, my sweats, my tears
exaggerated a little bit
not with my real blood and tears
but the sweats are true...
by the way, this is the Chinese slang
so pay no attentions to that

looking back
i just took the money for granted
never really understand the hard-earned money from my parent
right now
i looking at my sweats, hidden moods and anger, light case of insomnia, 
cracked hands, dirty clothes, tired legs, nightmares (dreams about working)
the money i earned sure came with the hard way
and again, not that i like to complain
i started to feel like a cheap labour
working almost as much, as hard like a full-time worker
but just having a part-time wages
feeling like throwing so much of efforts for this part time job
and i worked three days per week for this so called "part-time" job

well, life experiences are coming from the grinding during young adult stage
so i trying to ignore these facts
just afraid that some times later
i might burst into tears/rages without reasons

Loveless guy...

another day had passed
and the never-came-to tomorrow is arrive
ever since the Easter vacation start
i found myself doing nothing but Internet surfing and playing on my psp
and i do have an assignment due in right after Easter vacation finish
seriously, the three weeks vacation just lost it's first week
and i accomplish nothing
nothing at all...

rather, i welcomed 16th of April 2011 with drinking with my fellow friends at UK
nothing particularly
but i just suddenly realized something
it seems like i am the most "childish" one
but the meaning of it normally people would refer to life experiences
but this is the meaning that i meant just now
it's the love experiences
even there is a chef who is 30 y/o something
still single but at least he developed some relationships
but look at me
nothing...nothing at all.......
what a loveless guy...i think


i do have crushes to the people i met
but i never had the chance to further develop the relationship from friend to lover
and i was thinking that i might have a chance at here
since that most of the restraints at m'sia didn't apply here
but it seems that this last hope i held is scatted
so fragile like glasses, so thin as air,
so hopeless till a situation of despair
well, you might start to think that I didn't confessed, didn't you?
I do, yes I did confessed
but she said "don't be silly"
end of the line

and I don't think this is a good idea to tell my parents as well
thanks goodness they can't read English
and don't know that i have a blog either
I can imagine what they'll say
"i spent so much money for you to study there, be serious on studying."
"matters about relationship can wait till you graduate or find a job or have a stable career."
they gonna say this two lines, depends who i tell first, my mum or my dad
so no point telling them since that they are not gonna to help

i can kinda understand the characters in the drama/anime that i watched
their loveless life are usually used as jokes
but i think it gonna reeaaaalllyyyy hurt if somebody just make laugh on your life like that
this is i am stepping into 21 y/o
and still haven't developed a relationship yet....
the infamous "Christmas to Marriage" comparison is kinda scary
since that i am getting closer and closer to that...

destiny is not here yet??
my destiny.....

Manchester again!!!

Picture taken in front of Manchester Arndale

well, the Manchester city will be a very exciting trip to the football fans
but not for me of course
but the only reason i went to Manchester is to buy something
this something can be anything
ranged from IT stuffs to fashions
at least for me it is...XD

I decided to went to Manchester in a whim with my friend
and the surprise is he said yes..
well, nothing much to do there
we just went to the stores
i want to buy a jacket, a pair of shoe and probably some pants or clothes
since that i do want to waste the train fare
it's quite expensive
but since that Manchester is quite far away from Chester
then i think it's alright, not a problem

and, i think i got the shopping spree today
and what my friend got is just a pair of pants
while i get a new jacket, new shoes and pants
and of course, he is in charged for taking the photos
since that i don't have a camera

the yakisoba is good!!!

but i still don't like the weather in Manchester
shorty after we arrived, it's raining
so we decided to have some sushi as lunch (bruch for my friend)
then went to some big shopping center
and after we came out form the building
the rain stopped
and the nice blue sky sure heighten my mood
and a roasted pork and duck with rice as my dinner

nice weather in Manchester

what a nice trip if i want to say so myself
and just as i looked through the Internets
the ps3 here sure is very inexpensive
approximately £200
i can worked for two weeks to get it
but back to m'sia
i need to worked for at least 2 months to get it
funny......XD
now i think about it
i spent my whole weekly wages already
this week is gonna be a very tight budget week!!!
my dream laptop is gonna wait for two more weeks in order to get enough money!!!!!
T^T

I didn't work for you, you old hag...

Iro iro na,
kono baka no on'na...

sorry for those who can't read japenese
it's very simple words
google translate it and you'll get what i meant....

as the title said
there is one particular hag
and
frankly speaking
the more i thinking about this
i am getting more angrier, frustrate, and felt like want to punch her on the face
just f*ck off!!!!
hope that i can have a dream of punching/kicking/slashing/bombing/burning/anything else her...
it will be a wonderful dream i ever had!!!!

and seriously
i started to understand how's my parents feel like
when they encounter this kind of situations...
and....
hereby, i want to apologize to my parents
who worked so hard for me
but i still giving them troubles and this and that......

what a new experience
if i want to say so myself
as an international student....
and some people is not gonna get the feelings
then he/she just pretends like:
"geez, you're a student, so act like one"
and i would reply with:
"yeah yeah, you got luck on your side, having your parents supporting yourself, and you do not have to work-till-you-drop to earn the money-that's-with-your-sweat-and-blood to sustain your living expenses, you spoiled brat!"

again, another thing that pissed me off.....
so once again
f*ck off!!!

sorry for the foul language
just this kind of thing really making people frustrated...
so
iro iro na....kono baka

by the way
one of my hidden characteristics
my anger is the silent flames <------figure that one yourself!!!
so don't mess with me!!

Well then, what's next?

Well, frankly speaking
what is expected in life, is unexpection
and, human always tell lies, no matter what...
what am i talking about is the exam
based on what the lecturer said
"what's no in the lecture notes will not be in the exam"
and of course, to avoid any unnecessary troubles
i went through everything

and well
there are questions that're not in lecture notes
well, i think nobody is gonna blamed for
the lecturer just done his job after all
and it's our students' responsibility to study
BUT
FORGET THIS
EVERYTHING IS DONE AND I GIT THREE WEEKS EASTER BREAK!!

but i am still thinking
what should i do for this three weeks break
the second vacation in uk....
i can't think of anything that's need my attention the most
set aside the placement thingy
i sent the job description to the office and let them settle it for me
all i need to do is to settle the transport problem
well, actually is half solved
i got the info already
just need to give them a call

and then what's next?
nothing particularly
just realized that i spend more money then usual
i think this is caused by i am so "rich" already....
but still haven't got enough money to get a new, GOOD  laptop
when i went through the street, the IT stores always capable ton draw me to them#
and usually i gonna spend like 15 minutes in there without buying anything
simply because i want to compare the differences and the prices
IT stuffs nowadays sure is every penny worth every quality

maybe i'll choose the sony vaio as i set my eye on before i came here...XD
now then, i don't know what to do
people are going back to their home sweet home
while i staying back
it seems that i didn't make some really good friends here
when i mean really good friends
i mean the friends that i can trust of
can share of, can laugh with them, crying, share the joy
well
this kind of friends are rare, like DNA profile ~
a complete DNA profile
go and find the definition if you didnt get what i meant

or am i just too picky?

almost there

zoro zoro, subete wa owari sareru...
ahem, doubt only a fraction of people will understand that
what i mean is,
it's almost time, all the pressing matter will be done..
that's was a joke...XD

just one, the first exam i am having in uk
the exam start tomorrow
while i am at the library
what am i doing you ask?
nothing special
entertaint myself while studying
and feel like post something up to take a break

not really scared, not really confident about it..
i should say it's a half and half feeling...
i felt prepared, and not prepared...
and, to be honest
i am not the study-the-all-day type
some of you know this already
i seldom cram before exam

well, this is one my strength, and weakness as well
my parents used to said that if i put more efforts in studying
i might have a much more better results
just that this doesn't suit me after all

besides, i got to work, play, and sleep
so didn't have much time to study at all
or rather
dont feel like studying at all...XD

Dissidia 012: Duodecim Final Fantasy!!!

speaking of which
i got this particular game
well, a big fans for this
you can't blame me for that!!
this is just my hobby!!!!!!!
and i really like this game!!!
and i am having fun askiong the store clerk for this game....
for some times, he don't know what am i talking about!!!!



and then, i went to shopping, right the day before my exam
genius? count me out
fool? did you see my results?
well, i just decide to went to bank, and buy some daily stuff (big fans of milk btw)
and then, i went to Mark and Spencer (it's a store in uk), and looked for a jacket
just have the feel that i want to buy a new jacket
and the jacket hunting mission failed miserably
but i went to Primark (another store in uk which famous of selling average quality cloths at cheap price)
and i brought a new jeans, at a whim, so called combat-fit jeans
and surprisely, it fit perfectly, and it's the exactly the type of jeans i am looking for
right now i was reminisicing about the pains of buying a new jeans back to malaysia during CNY.....XD

and i am thinking
it's about time that i will get a new laptop soon...
suddenly feel like i am so rich!!!!
Mwahahaha

P/S
just looking at the FB's link that my friend shared
i realised that Malaysian's English is the best in Asia!!!