Maybe I was wrong

well, i admit that i am not a good teacher, guider, or whatever that need to teach people
simply because i had very high expectation
or should i say
I judge others with high expectations...
but then again
maybe i was wrong

well, i guess that music people can't be very analytically....

Recently.....

well, since that I am resume to workout my big fat body
it is been a long time I feel myself are so.....fulfilling
and then, several people come at me
some came for the advice
some are just looking to have a company
but i don't myself can be a good company
i am too...well, realistic....XD

in fact, when i am working as usual yesterday
well, this post is on 30th of July
while things happened on 29th, so, yesterday and past tense
the is one guy, working in the kitchen
he just learnt that his father passed away
then he disappeared for like an hour
then came back with a bunch of papers
i believe it is the flight ticket's details
then he just tried to get enough money for the ticket
and cthe last minute ticket can be expensive
like £1000 or something, if I didn't get it wrong

anyhow
what i thought back there
is that the life are just like a shooting star
you come to this world so quickly, like how a shooting start appear
then, maybe some of the shooting stars are sighted by people
just like the people in this world that done something extraordinary
which make them make a carved memory in their minds

then, when you dead, in any means
just like how a shooting start disappeared, without a trace
but to those who saw the shooting stars, they may remember it
they may forget it, they may have a photo of it been taken

but, there is one biggest difference between life and shooting star
the shooting stars are not been sighted 100%
some people may never see a single shooting star
and some people may even forget that they witness meteor shower
but life is different
you always leave a memory to those people you met, encountered, befriended
especially to those that you interact most
by here i mean your family, your spouse, your children...
and you'll never be forgotten

anyway, getting a little bit too long
maybe i should put down my schedule for 30th July 2011
1130: free breakfast at chinese restaurant
around 1330: see my housemate go back via train
1430: gym time
1830: working

then 31th July
maybe 1000 or 1100: get my friend from train station and let him stay at home for next day's trip
either 1400 or 1600: working

then 1st August <----by far my favorite month :-D
probably running around chester...lolz

Whatever

for sometimes

i been reading other people's blogs recently

but there are particular one guy, obviously from TARC

he can pick up my interest

and I am the type of people that is hard to be impressed so easily

well, I like how he struggle his life with many problems

and he is kinda...well, pessimistic, hopeless, and stubborn i might add

don't treat me like I am sadistic or something

I just want to see how's the other people life goes

you can't get many chances that people will put their day to day activities these day

it is not wise, and dangerous

ahem, back to this guy

as I say, pessimistic, hopeless and stubborn

the part he is very pessimism at is on is romance relations

it seems that he had his heart broke before

so after that, he become very negative on life

the situation getting worst as he got family, financial, education issues arose from his life

the hopeless part of him is the same as he being pessimism

then for the stubborn part

I can't believe people can still love/like their crushes for such a long time

like three or fours years now, based on his blog history

and it seems that he never let go of his feeling toward his crush

then these facts add up

he became the type of people that I don't like if I must be honest to my feeling

so, times like these, a neutral word, sentences come in handy

like

"whatever"

"up ti you"

"okay okay lor" <----broken english, how nostalgic

personally, i like these

I do have my opinions from time to time

and if I think it is wise and reasonable, I'll spit it out

but if not, well, whatever..XD

I do so because I don't want others to feel like i am very command

because from time to time I will see what's their opinions toward the issues

if i think there are no severe consequences, I'll let others to decide

then, if i can feel the seriousness of the issues, I'll want to make my opinion loud and clear

for example

having meals with friends

well, this really depends on the mood, and personal preferences

normally i wouldn't have any opinions to try some place new

but if i know the foods are suck, then this is when i state my views

and these kinds of things really depends on situation

and my past experiences make me realized that there are no perfect solutions

at least there are one person that have some objection toward the decisions made

so, either convince them, or alter the decisions and plans

getting a little bit too long....

go back to the lonely guy issue

different people have their different views

for me, if there are somethings that doesn't belong to you

then no matter how hard you try, you would not get what you desire

even thought you might get it, 

but maybe there are something else that been have their quality/quantity reduced

but i don't advocate that you shouldn't try

I will take everything into my considerations before trying such as resources

so, I think I can let go the thing that have been lost

and maybe I am not a good child

since that the family burden is lies on me

and I didn't ignore it, but it will be a great task for me to fulfill it

plus, I do not know that will I cry if I lost my precious family members and friends *touch wood!!!!!*

emotionless? No

but I understand that the life, death and stuffs like that can't make a great stir in my mind

what is coming, then there are chances that we cross path during out life

what's gone is gone

why should I mourning it over nothing??

then, I believe that everything is kinda like destinated

just your choice lead to different consequences, like predetermined fate

so I cherish my friends i made

anyhow, this is getting too long

maybe there will be a sequel after this.....

time now, 0100, 23rd of July, 2011

This is getting serious

well
I just feel kinda annoyed when people ask the following questions
"how have you been?"
"doing anything in house?"
"been doing well?"
and the similar questions like these

frankly speaking
i do nothing that worth mentioning
just play the games
what games?
well

get the stories?

Moving out

i can't say i like how the time behave
but i can say that i didn't hate it either
depends on the circumstances
some times you do wish time move faster when you are in a awkward moment
and you wish it move slower when you are having a good time

enough for the pointless views
i am moving out in...
well, according to my plan
it would be 13 hours, corrected at this point of typing
so, what i want to say is, the time is just flew by
it seems that i just arrived this room yesterday
and i am moving out in few more hours
i liked the new house's design
not actually my dream house design
but close enough...XD

maybe i am gonna upload some new house photos....
since that i can transfer the files via bluetooth...
and oh, I found out that I like Shantotto's laughing
too bad the laughing is too...feminine...XD

Now its really a pain in the ass

ok, i admit that i seldom to read the latest headlines
either the headlines are from UK, or m'sia
i know that it is a responsibility, in term of being a grown up
but for me
it is really a pain in the ass
or more politely
Can I give you a ladder? So that you can get off from my back

well, if there are something really, seriously, dead seriously emergencies
everyone will just put them on to the FB
so i still using "seldom" instead of "never" at the first place
otherwise, I will just ignore everything that does't have a direct effect on me

more nonsense things
well, the solitude isn't a healthy living style
furthermore, solitude during summer vacation
I don't mind holidays, but i hate living alone during holidays
it just a waste on my time
well, more part time jobs then....

then again
i am leaving this house soon
7th of June
this is the date that i move out from this bloody house
no more limitation on internet connections
and i can enjoy some longing MMORPGs that I want to play

oh, there is one more thing that picked my emotions again
it is about the birthdays issue
well, it is a common occasions that people having birthday party in restaurants
so there are no exceptions in the restaurant that i an working too
and the cakes always surprise me
what can i say to those fancy cakes?
spoiled brats? XD

it is fun to look for cakes for this post

and due to some special circumstances
(for most of the times, i am been bullied)
I am always is the one that handle to cakes to the tables
then I was wondering
what will my friends here do during my birthday?
well, I'll be lying if I say I don't want and don't like any surprises
but when some of my friends asked me questions regarding my birthday
frankly speaking, I don't know how to answer these questions
some times, i just said, whatever you like, with my physical mouth
but my inner self say different
the answer is of course, "well, surprise me!!"
something like that

well, it seems that the time flew again
i was thinking that kill some times with game while waiting my hair is dry then hit the sack
but is post is long enough to let the hair dry, short enough to keep me maintaining the sleepiness..
well, that's that, and happy birthday to everyone