Kinds of friends

<p>After a few days of isolation in my room, just to finish the one and only assignment for one subject, and of course, excluding the time I spent for my lectures and my regular gym workout, I realise that you will tends to be have similar friends, and these so-called friend groups are not necessarily know each other. </p>
<p>For example, friends who is lazy, or know a lot of weird facts which is not really scientifically true, or friend who can remember others birthday and will make a big deal out of it, or somebody that looks like you both are fall in love together despite that both of you are same gender, or friend that act like your big brother but some other times like your little helpless brother. </p>
<p>The point is, I think it is important to have a happy, memorable memory with them, so that when you are lonely, you can recall the memories to make you at least have a small yet satisfying smile. Or you can do it a little further, you left a strong impression in their hearts.</p>
<p>I am not sure is it just me, or this happened to everyone, that sometimes I dreamt about I am doing something with my friends. What's more bizarre is they are from my different group of friend, for example, my best buddy with my friend I met in uk. I think this is what they call, you dreamt what you think during daytime. But for me that wasn't the case.</p>
<p>This makes me think of something, I am not sure that am I being studying so much, or I am just way too analytical and scientifical. But some recent events make me think of what is love, feelings and things of same sort of nature. When I saw some couples walking around, with their smiles and stuff like kissing and holding hands, it makes me think that what are really, those kind of feelings.

Anyhoo, I think maybe because I haven't really meet someone that perfect for me, or maybe I am not mature enough in a sense??

That took too long

Well, to be honest, I almost forgot this little corner here, and I think I told some of my friends about this, but I still gonna repeat it anyway, there is a lot of thing in my mind, and only a very small fraction of them are making me happy.

Needless to say, the rest of them aren't really cheering my up, rather I would think them as a demotivator. And what make me more depressed is most of them are completely out of my controls. You can't really control what people do and say, do you?

Well, I am exactly talking about some people from my part time job, and I don't care whether or not they are reading this or not. Plus I don't think they are "sophisticated" enough to read some random guy blog.

It is just that they are so, well, weird would be an understated, "crazy, insane, chaotic" would be seems appropriate. And I am not joking about this. They seems to be like those kind of people that would like to disrupt the peaceful, happy working place into chaotic, mind guessing, schematic battlefield. Looks those hk drama and I cba to watch.

Well if it isn't to reduce the burden on my parents financially, and I can't find a better part time job, I would punch them in the face and sayonara,  I am quit, have fun in this hellhole.

Anyhoo, this post is posted when I lying on my bed, after several failed attempts to sleep. And this is kinda like a last ditch effort for me to sleep before I pull out the ultimate weapon for me to sleep. And this do helped me to relieve some of the stresses.

So, good night?

Its been a really long time!

<p>Just realised that it is a long time ago since I update this blog, well there's a lot of things are on my mind during weekend where I should post something here, and I just want to go to bed asap and hope there is a good night sleep. But in fact, no, I don't really have a good night sleep at all. It is kinda like a wheel of fortune, where you can have a good week and then some bad week where everything gone wrong. </p>
<p>Well, it really good because whatever you are doing, the outcome is what you expected or better, you feel like you are having a roll. But then, when the first thing goes wrong, the bad luck followed. Which I really have that when it happened. This of course, will affect the mood of the week, hence your performance during works. I mean the proper work that paid, not assignments.</p>
<p>And at the time like this, you wish there are someone you can talk to, and doesn't hope that they will give you some sarcastic comments about your wrongs. Well, it happened to me, when I talk to that particular people, I just want to heard some comforting things, rather than some harsh comments about "why you not putting more efforts?" type of comments.

This is where it hurt most, because I already learnt that don't get much hope, so there will be less disappointments when it come, but I never expecting that that people only give me some sarcastic comments and cold shoulder. And what make me more frustrated is, when that people get upset, all that people do is just keep complaining, and keep mourning about how much hope that the one close to that people is there. I mean come on, all you done is just complaining to me, and I take it because that's what I do for a friend, but when I get upset you just give me a tons of shits about how am I not doing my works properly.

I didn't talk to others, because I can already know what they gonna say, and then, I can even feel that attitudes of "not my business". Well, I guess this is what I get for playing all manly and don't-give-it-a-crap way of doing thing. And I admit that I have a very girlish side, where I said I don't care but in fact, for god sake, I do. But too much of this kind of things happened make me explode, then all of my emotions come out.

Well, I can't even find any enjoyment when I working, which I used to be. And I can tell you for sure that I am so overwhelmed during work. Think about you have to do everything that normally split to three people works, so just imagine the workload I have, plus I still have to do all my assignments and dissertation works. And once again, when I complain this to that people, all she (yes, a she) said is "this is part time la", another cold respond.

This makes me think that why I even bother when she got her own problems and I helped her?! Meaningless efforts for making a friend here. So I guess I just gonna do what I usually do, suck it up, and wonder when I gonna be go all furious and yelling and destroy everything.

Weeks after weeks

What they said was right, the time wait for no one, doubt that not even chuck Norris are able to reverse the time..lol

Well, what I can say is the time went too fast, I can't even enjoy myself enough for the break too. And off I go again, for a date :-)

Weeks after weeks

What they said was right, the time wait for no one, doubt that not even chuck Norris are able to reverse the time..lol

Well, what I can say is the time went too fast, I can't even enjoy myself enough for the break too. And off I go again, for a date :-)

Happy new year....?

Frankly, I am not allow to do this at work. Yes, I am still at work now, using my phone to make this post. Well, the boss want me to stay to help up cleaning the restaurant. So right now I am little bored till the party to finish. Anyway, I get my wages based on hours I worked, and I am kinda need some extra money, so beat it

Anywho, happy new year I guess. ...