well, you see
ever since that I got my new laptop
I was too excited to post anything on my blog
And this isn't good
this serve as my backup memories
if anything happened to me
and i got amnesia, maybe I still can use this recall what I have forgotten
then again
I wish I have amnesia, a serious one
so that I can forget everything
and start everything anew again
guess that the nostalgia and solitude hitting me very hard this time
and I mean "hard", its really a severe blow
the feeling of nostalgia is came from the new friends around me
and of course, the photos uploaded from FB
well, when they happily took their photos together
going out somewhere fun
gathering, intimacies and stuffs
making me want to go home...
homesickness eh?
initially I thought that I will be fine, but in fact, no
I didn't confess these to my parents every time I called them
just not to worried them
they got enough stuffs needed to worried about
and I do not want to increase their burden
confess to my friend?
well, being thinking about it
but based on their FB status updates
I don't think this is good idea too
as they got their hands full of all sort of things
counseling?
might be a good idea
but where? and put it simple
I do not trust them, or rather, I do not trust them so easily...
it is not that I am so "otaku" or geek or something
but when I looking at them
they are too close for me to join in
I mean the friends here
and they are gals, so a guy can't join in the conversations so easily
furthermore, I just met them like only three days a week
and my position is much like
"just another part time"
about the solitude
this is one of the things that totally out of my control
well, they are locals, while I am a foreigner
they went back to their families way before the summer vacation begin
and the only housemate here just not in his room
then only time I met him is around 1200
which is the time he wake up
then, 30 minutes later, off to library
not to studying, but he told me that his laptop is broken
so that explain everything.
and I am going to stay in the kind of status for 3 months
and i finally understand that there is one changes on the people around my age
"some times wake up in the midnight, and realized that I am alone"
but for me, is
"as long as I stay awake, I always realized that I am alone here"
well, getting a little bit too negative
probably I do have too much time to reflecting myself
well, when you got nothing to do
you might look for some random quiz to kill time, don't you?
and there is one test, and my personality result is "respectful analyst"
can't say that all of them are accurate
but I can't deny them either
just wonder that what is the taste of love.....
frankly speaking
Set aside that the graphic is a little bit too messy
