Really starting to afraid

Although I put my MSN messenger with the status of "starting to afraid", but that one I was just simply to change my status since there are like beens decades since I made the last change of the messenger status....

Just a little off track from the topic, on Thursday, I made my 4th blood donations, and as usual, the gift given are the same since I donated for the first time...an extra Drinkho product...and it'll be gone after I get back to home and before I want to drink it....but this time, i got a new gift..a Hotlink cap....well, this cap is gave from my friend, Torrent....So, Thank You!!!!

Next, the the thing that freak me out...potentially....

I attend the pre departure briefing from my agent whose help me to apply my overseas study application....named PVDL...a little advertising for them here...they will help you to organize your further study at UK, and they do not charge you any cents...they will also help you to apply student visa for there, but the money matters you'll need to settle yourself....but they can give you some advice and suggestions for money matters....

Back to topic...the briefing is held at Corus Paradise Resort, Port Dickson....my dad and i went there, the reason my dad's accompany me is because he just simply fetch me there. I tried to convince him to stay with me during the talks, but he insisted to leave because he saw there are many youngsters, while he is too obviously older...then he sat on the comfortable(very clearly) and took a nap....

As the named stated, the briefing is about what should be brought and shouldn't when you're leaving...basically, I knew most of it because this David guy told me beforehand, and i was just want to know the faces, like who is gonna attending the same university with me..but it's still be better if i attend it because David might forgot something or etc....

with that thought, i was almost foreseeing what's gonna happen when I take the flight, go to a place that i knew no one, recognized no place....right now i am really having a little shiver...no one gets comfortable when there are unfamiliar faces and places around....as well as no fears....

Darn...I hope...no, WANT everything follow exactly what I foresee so I can feel no confusion....^_^

Addicted

I borrowed PSP from one of my friend, this time, the main purpose I need it because the Dissidia: Final Fantasy (DFF) english version is release, and i want to play it...I am a big fans of the FF series, so no matter what i am gonna to try it....

The story of DFF are the goddess of harmony, Cosmos and her light warrior fight against villains from almost all FF's bad guys, and they are leaded by the god of discord, Chaos...and blah blah blah....in the end, of course is the good guys win...

i was playing it all of the day, almost from day to night. But i am never sacrifice my sleep time, having enough sleeping time is very important you see...my favorite character is Sephiroth, from FF VIII. Well, it's not that i like to use villains, but he is the playing type that suit my style, who makes the Sephy so strong with all those moves and skills??

that's enough, back to gaming....^_^

what kind of the nightmare...

i was had a very weird nightmare...

it's about like i am studying, but then i was sentenced to jail (???), then i go to KLCC (???!). After that, I ride some kind of roller coaster, which circle around the twin tower (giant roller coaster?!?!) Next, I wonder around some kind of shopping mall, which follow next i woke up...

very weird eh? Even the movie Inception didn't have this kind of story setting...I really wonder is it reflecting what am i really want right now? Because right now i feel my brain are capable to absorb new knowledge...

I am really can't wait for that day to arrive....

Imagination...

the day is getting closer, what day?

Well, it's a very, maybe it's not strong enough if i put important, FATAL would be better...the day that is my fatal step to realize my ambitions, as well as my dreams. Right now, I am getting nervous as I start to foresee, or imagine my life as an international student at UK...

They said, study abroad is a dream...here comes a little joke: It's a dream  for your father to study in an University, and it's a legend for you for unable to study beyond secondary school...not funny for some people, but i think it's time for our generation to grow and evolve...

back to topic. I was looking at the updated database and information from University of Chester's website, and when I looked at the information about accommodation, I was...well, how to say, some kind of feeling, difficult to describe, like i am wondering at a night residential area, alone. I want to draw it, but when i want to catch the glimpse details, the scene in my brain gone....so i have no choice but to search via Mr. G to look for the similar scene. and i found it, the scene is like this picture...


The majority of the picture is almost the same, and i was shocked because it's on the first page of the search result. Except there are endless straight road in the picture, the house's designs, street lights' color, time and etc are exactly the same that's in my mind.....I wonder is there any connection to my current psychology status....

Well, anyway, I would like to enjoy every minutes, every events and every place with everyone i know before i leave, to have a very good memory, as well as become my inner strength's greatest supporter...for my dreams!!!

New Blog!!!

As stated in my old blog, I did feel like i am gonna to make a new blog...sorry for those who follow so far...thanks!!!!

As introduction, I am known as TK Lee, born in Malaysia...my web name is Xemnas, but if you want, you can call me either Axel or Xemnas...either will do...I am a teenage, who gonna study in UK for Bachelor degree in Forensic Biology...well, i can only reveal that much...XD