delayed post

not actually delayed

just that yesterday night got the urge to put something up

but the stupid internet connection decided to against me

the new post tab on the Blogger just wouldn't load

so i gave up and went to to study...

talk about study

the exam date is around the corner

it's on 6th of March

of course i got some revisions done already

but the working and assignments and of course the psp distracting me

always...XD

think that i should went on the the studying and assignments

rather then spending more time at posting...XD

WBL.......

ahem, not a common abbreviation
the full name is Work Based Learning
nioce to meet you
haji masude
not this....wrong guy...XP

well, i think is is what make the UoC special
all level 5 student have to take a compulsory module
to be frank
want you to go out of the lecture room to gain experience
in either business organisation, school teacher or lab assistant....
depends on what course you are doing of course....

well, i can't said i like it, nor hate it
but it's kinda...how to said
not troublesome, but well, mix of every bit
and i gonna to have an interview with the placement provider...
this is what i feel so nervous and anxious about
beside, the transport problem is yet to be solve

so kinda frustrated....
maybe i'll just get a bus to the nearest place, then take a cab or something...for the interview only of course...
then i think i need to talk to the shuttle bus company...
see whether do they take me from my home to the lab....
well, i think they do of course!!!!

hope everything will be carried on under my expectations!!!!
"crossing finger!!!!"

Watashi no kodoku o shiranai

well, unable to be emo is kinda good thing
to the people around me, not to myself...
being emo a little bit don't hurt isn't?

based on my past experiences
once you're really good, or rather "expert" at something,
and when you need to start all over again the same thing,
don't you feel like WTF,
and tend to be feel like it take extremely long time to achieve/accomplish the same thing....

start talking nonsense.....
and right now i can kinda understand what he feel when he said he needs a GF so badly...
EAL, this guy, don't ask me who is he,
coz i am not gonna tell you....
it's the feeling of sabishii.....

then again, every weekends
i feel the same thing
and this not gonna disappear till I found the solutions......

to be honest, i feel like i am talking to myself...

Midnight

Well, once again
I was working, had supper with colleagues,
got back to my room late, had a late night bath,
stared at the laptop's screen, tried to catch up the latest news,
thinking nothing to do, them got the urge to post something on the blog,

this becoming a weekly routine,
study, working on assignments, working part time jobs, sleep, eat, play
that's all i got right now...
well, except one thing
you see,
when people starting to know you more, understands your characteristics
knows your preferences, avoids the thing you don't like etc etc
and the jokes are start to kick in and the conversations never run out of topics...

something like that....
and right now i understand why there is a red nose day, aka clown's day
this day is to appreciates their contribution to the laughs they brought,
and the hidden suffers they have behind the scenes...
and to be honest,
i am acting as a clown in front of my colleagues

my joke cracking skill seems didn't dull over the time,
but,
as i said, making myself funny doesn't mean that i am really that funny
just want to have an excuse,
the excuse of...well, don't know how to describe it....
kinda like hide my sad face or something...

this getting too long
hope the insomnia wouldn't kick in tonight
i done whatever i can do to make me have a good sleep....
now i can't remember when is the last time i have a good sleep
without dreams, without nightmares, and wake up whenever i want.........

Think

well, the time of this post is 0127, 13rd of March, 2011
just took a bath, calming myself for the things that happened..
well, i put things, so there are bunch of them...

firstly, i realized that my temper was faced a challenge...
and it's almost erupted...
of course, i didn't
mainly because i am working..
and it's not a great idea to show off my old self in front of new friends...and customers...
jeez, people...
don't treat me like I don't have any temper..
in fact I got much more shorter temper..
just didn't show it doesn't mean you can treat me like a big nice guy!!
i wonder how this particular people are married and has a family....
guess that the one who married this particular people is either forced, or an order from the family...
anyway, as i said from the previous post
life goes on
forget the stupid people....

Well, the other thing is much more interesting than the above...
is my characteristics...
i was wondering, do i have any distinguish characteristics that attract people...
or more directly,
would a girl like a guy like me?
probably not.....duh

Boku no Koibito?!

sore wa jodan.....
Well, while people worrying the earthquake and tsunami and stuffs...
but i got other things to worry about....
it's not that i am heartless or something..
but what can i do?
mourning?
praying?
didn't eat anything because of the sadness?
crying?

that doesn't suit me...
at least these wasn't my characteristics
life still goes on, no matter what happened...
life continued, no matter how sad or happy you are...
time just passed by, regardless the situations are despair, or are the bright future....

ahem, enough for views-of-life sentences...
back to main topic that i want to post..
apparently, the words i said when i drunk on the 6th of March, Sunday...
this particular day is way too special for me....
yes, you didn't read anything that shouldn't happened to me
and i am 120% awaken when i typing this
I W-A-S D-R-U-N-K
still don't get it?
get your English language checked!

and i think that i said something that i was supposed to said
no worries
not other people's secrets
but the secrets of myself...
they said: " when you are drunk, you are not actually drunk, you still 70% awake, another 30% is drunk"
then, "people will use the excuse of drunk to spill out something, i.e. you use alcohol to pretend you're crazy"
so, what's the secrets again?
sorry, but i don't think it's a good idea to spill it out here..
and I wouldn't spill it out again....not when i am still have my conscious...





after that, my colleagues start to flirting with me,
and don't be surprise, i got them from both genders..
weird huh?
i wish i know the reason why....
and apparently, one of my female colleague start to flirting me
too frequent
till a degree of i am not sure is she is serious or not...
but, based on my so-called "human mind analysis"
and past experiences, i think, and hope she isn't serious....

sorry for that if you are reading this, this-girl-that-i-am-talking-about
i mean, who would like someone like me?
a fat, weird, eccentric geek, otaku??

feel kinda childish, myself.
don't have many life experiences,
and definitely have less "salts" then the other....you know what am i talking about if you're Chinese...
but it would be wonderful.....the taste Koi......



oh yeah, I become an International Mentor
a voluntary post that I half-willingly-half-forced took recently
due to my kinda active in the activities that i took part....
my life never get much more free time than it used to be
and i start to think that 24 hours are not enough, which previously I don't....XP

Dilemma

Well, sometimes, or should i say, always,
I kinda feel like "this kind of thing"
note: "this kind of thing" is the thing that I want to tell everyone,
but i do not want anyone get worries about me....
maybe some of you, yes, i mean you, the reader,
know what am i talking about....especially back to college time.....
but right now, i have this kind of feeling again.

A dilemma situation,
I want to tell someone, but i dont want anyone know this....
maybe this got something to do with my image, pride, something like that....
well, let's see...

Watashi wa tomodachi ga inai
kono kanji
tada, watashi wa shitashii tomodachi shinai

And it's strange, reality is much more weird than fictions...
Sam Moss, of the international student support department want me to take care of somebody,
strange enough, me myself also facing the same problem
but this particular guy is having a much more serious situation than me....
then again, the phases i heard from experienced people is correct
"there are people who is much more unfortunate than you, so cheer up"
kinda weird, is it?