Midnight

Well, once again
I was working, had supper with colleagues,
got back to my room late, had a late night bath,
stared at the laptop's screen, tried to catch up the latest news,
thinking nothing to do, them got the urge to post something on the blog,

this becoming a weekly routine,
study, working on assignments, working part time jobs, sleep, eat, play
that's all i got right now...
well, except one thing
you see,
when people starting to know you more, understands your characteristics
knows your preferences, avoids the thing you don't like etc etc
and the jokes are start to kick in and the conversations never run out of topics...

something like that....
and right now i understand why there is a red nose day, aka clown's day
this day is to appreciates their contribution to the laughs they brought,
and the hidden suffers they have behind the scenes...
and to be honest,
i am acting as a clown in front of my colleagues

my joke cracking skill seems didn't dull over the time,
but,
as i said, making myself funny doesn't mean that i am really that funny
just want to have an excuse,
the excuse of...well, don't know how to describe it....
kinda like hide my sad face or something...

this getting too long
hope the insomnia wouldn't kick in tonight
i done whatever i can do to make me have a good sleep....
now i can't remember when is the last time i have a good sleep
without dreams, without nightmares, and wake up whenever i want.........