Loveless guy...

another day had passed
and the never-came-to tomorrow is arrive
ever since the Easter vacation start
i found myself doing nothing but Internet surfing and playing on my psp
and i do have an assignment due in right after Easter vacation finish
seriously, the three weeks vacation just lost it's first week
and i accomplish nothing
nothing at all...

rather, i welcomed 16th of April 2011 with drinking with my fellow friends at UK
nothing particularly
but i just suddenly realized something
it seems like i am the most "childish" one
but the meaning of it normally people would refer to life experiences
but this is the meaning that i meant just now
it's the love experiences
even there is a chef who is 30 y/o something
still single but at least he developed some relationships
but look at me
nothing...nothing at all.......
what a loveless guy...i think


i do have crushes to the people i met
but i never had the chance to further develop the relationship from friend to lover
and i was thinking that i might have a chance at here
since that most of the restraints at m'sia didn't apply here
but it seems that this last hope i held is scatted
so fragile like glasses, so thin as air,
so hopeless till a situation of despair
well, you might start to think that I didn't confessed, didn't you?
I do, yes I did confessed
but she said "don't be silly"
end of the line

and I don't think this is a good idea to tell my parents as well
thanks goodness they can't read English
and don't know that i have a blog either
I can imagine what they'll say
"i spent so much money for you to study there, be serious on studying."
"matters about relationship can wait till you graduate or find a job or have a stable career."
they gonna say this two lines, depends who i tell first, my mum or my dad
so no point telling them since that they are not gonna to help

i can kinda understand the characters in the drama/anime that i watched
their loveless life are usually used as jokes
but i think it gonna reeaaaalllyyyy hurt if somebody just make laugh on your life like that
this is i am stepping into 21 y/o
and still haven't developed a relationship yet....
the infamous "Christmas to Marriage" comparison is kinda scary
since that i am getting closer and closer to that...

destiny is not here yet??
my destiny.....