Back to square one?

well, i just can't believe that it's been more than one year since i got here
i still can remember that i was kinda timid, shy, quite back there
well, i can't said i changed so much
i am not very talkactive when facing people that aren't close to me
but once you get closer, know me more
the conversation topics just flooded out of my mouth

but what i can say is i am much more open minded
toward many things that's it
and the times just flew
but some times, i doubting myself that what am i even doing here
going out, went to gym, working part time, attending classes
now thanks to someone
i got a lot of time walking around to different places
and during these time, i done nothing
well, set aside fantasizing in my own little world
or just sing along with the songs i am listening if nobody around
or dance a little, if and only if no human being in sight
and of course, the most important thing
reaching deep down, questioning myself, reflecting what i done

but oh well
i did those stuff when i am walking anyway#
right now, i am enjoying the second day of christmas vacation
and i do really hate myself of being lazy when i got nothing do to
i had couple of assignments needed to be done
pilot study for my dissertation wen wrong last wednesday
gonna figure another way to do the experiment
well, actually just incorrect primers used
need to find another one
not to mention i still had to do some house chore
guess i gonna do them tomorrow
hope i still can remember after i finish my breakfast
speaking of which, i still need to do some grocery shopping as well
grrr, the list can be so long
yet my procrastination hitting me hard this tim

guess tomorrow gonna be a productive day
not for assignments though, but for surviving...:D