Desperated

It seems that one of my friend keep updating his blog at a unusual high frequency
and i don't it's a good idea to ask him the reason why
since that the posts are more of like self-realisation and such
anyway
since that he is behaved like this
i guess i should keep up the pace as well....XD
kinda like i am desperate to compete with him to see who can post more...lol

anyway
when i having a chat with my colleague during working as part time (of course get paid!!)
i just realized that there are someone who may showing interest in me
this particular people is from the lab that i am working currently
well
when i pass through the corridor
i always sense somebody is looking at me
and i saw this people looking at me and smile
of course, as politeness
i smile back at him
yes, he, him, his, a guy....

well, maybe i just fantasying things
but when i waiting for my friend to fetch me back to chester during Friday
at the entrance of the lab
he asked me that do i have a ride back home
and it seems that he is offering to take me home
then i shocked for a few milliseconds
then i said i am waiting my friend
so i, with respect, rejected his offer

then again, maybe i just jumped to the conclusion
he might be just try to be nice to me
as co-worker, as friend...well, eventually
different department after all
i am at the water extraction
while he is in GC
and the guy came in to talk to my team leader about the samples i prepared
is the same guy
so, it might be that he like the samples that i prepared since that all of them are so accurate....XD

anyway
once again
a quote from a game
and this can be a great motto
"arrogance beckons doom" by Warrior of Light from Dissidia Duodecim
but it seems that i might be desperated to be loved.....even from a guy....OMG
0.o