Mixed Feeling

Out of the blue, I felt all kinds of feelings. I do not know why, how, it’s just appear….homesickness perhaps?? XD

And right now I can completely feel a totally different culture now, Britain are tends to be more kinder, friendlier then M’sia.….don’t get me a wrong idea, i didn’t mean M’sian are greedy, grumpier or something else, but the levels are different….well, some of the M’sian are grumpy, that’s for sure…..XD

In fact, I am very jealous that most of my flatmates can go back to their home sweet home for weekends/holidays easily, while I can’t…I didn’t blame them, that’s their choices, but my jealousy come from sometimes I’ll imagine how it’s gonna be when I go back for holidays, then I may feel a sudden sadness, after that, I’ll try to do something to distract myself. Then, jealousy comes up…..

Kinda weird, if I want to say so myself, a little bit of fighting against my inner feeling with my rational and will to maintain the first few friendships I made here. But always, and I hope it’s gonna be forever, the rational and will win the war. I am always tell myself, that’s their choice, after all, and this is a process of growing into a fine man, plus, I am feeling a new experience!!! This is something that I have while they don’t!!! (apologies to my friends in UK here, I didn’t mean any insult or disrespect, just merely my thoughts and please forget and forgive me because this is really my feeling that’s I didn’t tell)

As a result (suddenly, I like this, like typing a report already..XD), I can feel some happiness again!! Emotional?? Everyone will get it eventually, and it’s not unusual…oh, by the way, I start watching Lucky Star, and this can really relieve some stress and homesickness as well!!!

PS: this is for Yuuji, I feel like Konata is somehow resemble to you…..XD